Everything went silent.

‘’ Liam we have to go ‘’ I heard someone say in the background.

‘’ Baby I’m so-’’ he said but I interrupted him.

‘’ What you have to go again? Go ahead Liam, but just remember this is the last time I’m letting you just hang up on me when I have to talk to you, when I need you ‘’ I said and with that I hung up. I wasn’t going to cry this time. I’m letting my feelings get to me tonight. I’ve cried to much already.

I stood up and checked my phone, 9 missed calls from Liam. I sighed and took my phone with me and out to the living room.

‘’ Come with me ‘’ my sister said and grabbed my wrist making me hiss. Tears filled my eyes as the sharp pain hit me. She looked at me with sad eyes before she hugged me.

‘’ I am so sorry, I forgot about your..’’ she said and sighed.

‘’ Cuts? It’s okay Lauren you can say it out loud’’ I said and she nodded before taking my hand, leading me to the couch.

‘’ It’s okay to cry ‘’ she said as she kneeled in front of me. I shook my head as a tear slipped out. She sighed and walked to the kitchen knowing I wanted to be alone. My phone started vibrating and I looked at it.

Babe

I sighed before picking up the phone.

‘’ Lia- give me the ph-’’ I heard Niall say.

‘’ Chesca ‘’ I heard Liam say before something getting locked. I sighed and felt everything hurt.

‘’ What ‘’ I said coldly.

‘’ Happy belated anniversary ‘’ he whispered.

‘’ Oh wow, you can’t even say it properly? ‘’ I said scoffing. He sighed.

‘’ What do you want me to say Chesca I’m sorry I forgot okay? I’ve just been so busy latel-’’ he said but I interrupted him.

‘’ I would’ve understood Liam because people forget, they make mistakes, but the fact that you’ve been avoiding me? Not wanting to see or talk to me.. It just doesn‘t make sense‘’ I said.

‘’ You said this yesterday, what are you talking about?’’ he asked.

‘’ This has been the longest you’ve actually talked to me Liam. You have been avoiding me and I really don’t know why. If I did something wrong tell me ‘’ I whispered the last part.

‘’ You didn’t do anything wrong ‘’ he said and I laughed with no humor.

‘’ Well obviously I did, or maybe you’re just sick of me but I’m just saying this now before you have to go again. Forgetting was the last drop’’ I said tears welling up in my eyes.

‘’ What do you mean last drop?’’ he asked.

‘’ I’m making it easier for you, this is what you want right? ‘’ I said.

‘’ No I love you ‘’ he said and I felt something change inside but I ignored it.

‘’ Maybe you do Liam, but you sure as hell don’t love me in that way anymore because what you did to me I could never do to you. You’re busy is a lame excuse Liam, that’s all I have to say to you, tell the boys that I’m not mad at them for lying. Goodbye Liam ‘’ and with that I hung up on him.

It was two weeks since our fight. The first week we kept arguing, I love him, I still do. I fiddled with my necklace where I had the ring he gave me and walked into the hallway. I always wore it under a concert, for luck, but since we weren’t together anymore it didn’t feel right to keep it on my finger.

‘’ Demi! ‘’ I yelled as I saw her. She got of the phone and smiled as she hugged me.

‘’ Happy birthday baby! So are you ready to tell everyone you’re touring with me?’’ she smiled and I laughed.

‘’ You’re not getting the answer yet, you’ll know when the others find out and thank you‘’ I smiled. I guess I forgot to mention that me and Demi met up when I came back to the US and if I decide to go touring I’m opening for her.

‘’ Come on ‘’ she said eagerly.

‘’ You don‘t have to go so fast, it‘s about 10 minutes till we start’’ I giggled. She shook her head and pulled me up the stairs and walked in the door to where the balcony thing was. I looked down and noticed all my fans who was there waiting eagerly making me smile. You could see the stage perfectly because it wasn’t such a big place, but still much bigger then the Hard Rock Café and the other venues I’ve played at.

I looked at Demi confused and she nodded. Suddenly all the girls started screaming and I turned my head to the stage to feel my heart dropping.

‘’ Hi everybody, we’re One Direction and we are going to be opening this concert for our best friend C Valentine, happy birthday boo ‘’ Zayn said and looked at me. I found it hard to swallow and as I met Liams eyes my heart broke. He had cut his hair so short, he looked so different.

‘’ We are sadly just going to sing one song for you tonight but we don’t want to steal the star of the nights spotlight’’ I heard Liam say as I closed my eyes. The song started playing and I felt my heart ache as I heard Liam sing.

Girl I see it in your eyes you’re disappointed
‘Cause I’m the foolish one that you anointed with your heart
I tore it apart
And girl what a mess I made upon your innocence
And no woman in the world deserves this
But here I am, asking you for one more chance
My heart stopped at this, he kept looking at me while singing and he smiled at me.. Weakly but that was a smile.. was he really? Is he?..

Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I’ll fade
‘Cause there is nobody else
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you
Now girl I hear it in your voice and how it trembles
When you speak to me I don’t resemble, who I was
You’ve almost had enough
And your actions speak louder than words
And you’re about to break from all you’ve heard
Don’t be scared, I ain’t going no where
I’ll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I’ll fade
‘Cause there is nobody else
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you
Oh girl, can we try one more, one more time?
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more time
I’ll make it better
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more,
Can we try one more time to make it all better?
‘Cause it’s gotta be you
Its gotta be you
Only you
Oh, Only you
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you

The song ended and they waved the curtains closing. I was smiling badly, I love him to much not to give him a second chance. I smiled at Demi before running to the stage and jumping into his arms. As I hugged him I closed my eyes tightly just taking in the moment. After a while I pulled away and smiled as I looked at him.

‘’ I’m so glad you’re here, lets just forget everything okay?’’ I said and he smiled sadly. My hands dropped slowly to my side.

‘’ What?’’ I asked confused.

‘’ Baby, you were great ‘’ someone said suddenly hugging Liam giving him a peck on his lips. Okay my heart has officially been ripped out, thrown to the ground and tramped on. No you know what, that’s not even possible but it feels like it..Wait on second thought.. I don’t feel anything, I feel numb. I took a deep breath before the guys came up to me and hugged me one by one. Niall looked like he was going to cry.

‘’ I’m sorry ‘’ he mouthed. I managed to smile a fake one. I shook my head and the girl smiled at me, she was.. beautiful.

‘’ Hi, Chesca Valentine right? I’m so in love with your music. I’m Danielle, Danielle Peazer’’ she smiled widely as she shook my hand. It all makes sense now.

And to you guys who cut.. I know it’s tempting.. I know it seems like you deserve it, like you just have to do it, you feel you have to punish yourself, like no one cares so you have to go do that and I know I can’t force any of you to stop, but just remember this that you’re not alone. You don’t deserve it, you are all beautiful whether you guys believe me or not. You can hate me for saying that thinking that I’m lying but I’m not, I know I’m just a stranger but you can talk to me, there are some things you can only tell a stranger.. I know I keep saying these things but I really want to help you guys, so just talk to me okay guys? Lotsoflovebabes! xx

Btw; does it make sense to you guys now? hehe