Harrys POV


She was looking at me with those chocolate brown eyes. She frowned before she suddenly smiled. 


” It’s okay Haz like I said two can play this game ” she slurred into my ear before giggling and running of to the bar. Okay this girl was tipsy. 


An hour passed and she was way past drunk she was completely wasted. I sighed as I stood up walked over to her.


” Brooke lets go” I said and she shook her head. I sighed.


“Brooke” I spat. She shook her head and crossed her arms above her chest. 
Okay I’m not putting up with this shit. I threw her over my shoulder and took her home. Luckily our folks weren’t home. I placed her in the bed and she giggled.


“Wanna know a secret?” she said before she held me by the collar, sat on her knees and leaned in. 


“Loving you was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.. But you were worth it” and with that she giggled and lied down. This wasn’t like her, she didn’t like drinking or getting drunk. 
I helped her get changed and tucked her in bed. I headed for mine and took of my shirt and pants. 


” Haz.. Can you stay with me tonight ” her sweet voice whispered from the other side of the room. I looked at her and put on some sweatpants before I walked over there and held her in my arms. She snuggled up to me and kissed my cheek before she rested her head by my neck. How stupid am I to let a girl like that go? Stupid fuck.

Brookes POV


I slowly opened my eyes and smiled as I saw Haz lying next to me, what happened last night?


” Morning” his morning voice echoed.


” Hey ” I whispered and he smiled weakly. 


” No fighting today?” he asked and I shook my head.


” Let’s take a break ” I whispered and he smiled at me. He began stroking my hair as he just starred at me.


” Is there something wrong? ” I asked and he shook his head.


” Just thinking ” he answered. 


” About what?” I asked. 


” Something you said last night ” he mumbled. Wait what? 
” I’m sorry if I said something crazy, I was drunk” I told him.

Harrys POV


Yeah, drunk.. 
” Don’t worry about it ” I smiled but felt sad inside. After she fell asleep last night.. I told her I love her, because.. I do but we both know that I fucked up and now we act like we hate each other again, 
or maybe she really does hate me. She was smiling at me, it was shocking to me because not a lot of people look this beautiful in the morning but she was gorgeous she really was not like those other girls I ended up leaving in the morning. This girl was different and like I said earlier, I’m such a stupid fuck cause I´m inlove with a person I had, and fucked over and this girl is the best thing that has happened to me. 

Brookes POV 


He was staring at me and my lips. He locked eyes with me and we both licked our lips at the same time. He chuckled and I bit my lip after giggling a bit.


” Has anyone told you how beautiful you are?” he asked me as he placed his hand on my waist. I nodded before placing my hand on his cheek.
” You used to ” I whispered as I looked him in the eyes, a hint of pain filling mine.


” Brooke.. I’m-“
 ” It’s okay Haz, can’t say that I was surprised, neither can you because I told you that if you were just playing I wouldn’t stay, and I didn’t, now this day is a time out remember so please just don’t bring anything up okay?” I said and he nodded. I turned around and his grip tightened around me. He rested his head on my shoulder and I closed my eyes. I missed this.. I missed him. 
I opened my eyes and checked the clock, I fell asleep. I turned to look at Harry who was still awake.

” You didn’t go back to sleep?” I asked and he shook his head. 


” What did you do for a whole hour?” I asked. 


” Massaged your stomach, I’m guessing it’s in pain ” he smiled. How’d he know?


” I know because those times you actually drank, you’re stomach hurt like hell afterwards ” he said, he remembered that?


” You didn’t have to do that you know?” I said. 


” Yeah I know, but I wanted to. Besides that’s nothing compared to the things you’ve done for me” he said and I sighed.


” Thank you” I whispered before kissing his cheek. He smiled as he stroked my cheek with his thumb. I put my hand on top of his and closed my eyes as he kissed my forehead.

I opened my eyes and smiled as I looked at him. He smiled and suddenly something vibrated. I looked to my right where my nightstand was. 


” It’s your phone Haz ” I said. 


” Can you just check it for me?” he asked and I picked it up unlocking his phone.

4 new messages

I opened the first one which was from Lou.


Mate, I miss you how are you? I heard you guys were forced to move out of your house? Where are you staying me and the boys want to come visit! 


I smiled and replied; 
Heeey boobeaaar, curly is staying at our place so just come visit okay? You know before I end up killing him.. Miss y’all! 
I wrote and replied.


Mate are you dead or something? Answer your phone! Niall had written. 


Nialler, curly is dead I killed him. I replied and the other messages were from some girl.


Hey Baby, want to meet up later? From a girl named Karly. 
Baby call me back from the same girl. 
I rolled my eyes and the phone vibrated again. 


Booboo! How are you? Why didn’t you tell me that you’re back!! We’ll come visit! And I’m surprised you haven’t killed him yet, I miss you too! xx 


I smiled and replied; 
I’m great actually, I tried calling but I know you’re with El so I decided to just leave you a voicemail. Oh yeah hurry up if you want to see your boyfriend again, and bring nandos with you, you have 48 hours.. GO!


I started laughing and checked Nialls reply;
 Princess! I missed you!! Oh well that’s okay, you can take Harry’s place in the group ;) 
I replied; well that’s about time haha, I miss you guys come soon okay! xx 
I replied and looked up from the phone to find a curious Harry looking at me.


” One of your girls?” I asked and handed him the phone. 
He shook his head. 


” She was ” he answered embarrassedly.


” But I’ve changed ” he said with a serious expression on his face.


” That’s good Haz ” I said and patted his face gently before sitting up and hopping out of bed. I looked at myself and raised an eyebrow as I looked at him.


” How’d this these clothes get on me?” I asked as I smirked. He smiled a cheeky smile and I rolled my eyes. 


” Such a perve” I said and headed for the door.

Okay, so I´m aware I haven´t updated in a month and to be honest I didn´t even think it over, I can´t believe that it´s gone a month and I´m super super sorry!!!!!! I´ve been super busy with school, and I´ve lost interest in the story but I will keep writing it till it´s done, cause I owe you guys. Again I am so sorry!! and to you guys who had patience and didn´t unfollow me thank you do much! xxxx I hope y´all enjoy xx

‘’ Hi ‘’ I waved feeling terribly nervous, but I still managed to smile as I walked up to the X on the front.

‘’ Hi sweetie what’s your name?’’ Cheryl aksed an amused smile plastered on her face.

‘’ Brooke Rodriguez ‘’ I answered her, trying not to forget to breath.

‘’ Where are you from Brooke?’’ Louis asked smiling widely as well.

‘’ Manchester ‘’ I answered and the part of the crowd I’m guessing from Manchester started cheering, making me smile wider.

‘’ Okay Brooke which song are you going to sing for us today?’’ Simon asked.

‘’ Brooke! You’re on!’’ Cher laughed snapping me out of my flashback and pushing me towards the stage.

I made it through that day and now here I am one step closer to reaching my dream.

‘’ You were great!’’ Cher squealed as she jumped around with me backstage. Cher Lloyd, a 16 years old girl also wanting to reach her dream and my new best friend.

‘’ Thanks babe, you too!’’ I giggled and suddenly the boys joined us jumping around making me laugh.

We were eating ice cream at the house to celebrate. I walked up the stairs and to the door of our room. I opened the door and walked into mine and Chers room. I turned on the lights and I almost pissed myself as I saw someone lying in my bed, groaning as he ducked under the covers.

” Everyone’s been looking for you, and here you are sleeping in my bed ’’ I paused and he mumbled something.

’’ Again ’’ I paused again and he hummed.

’’ Now go away!” I added and he pulled the covers over his head trying to go back to sleep. I walked over to him and pulled the cover off him making him lay on his back and glare at me.

” Not my fault you’re sleeping in MY BED, now go away!” I said and he shook his head. I walked to him and took his hand trying to pull him off my bed when he suddenly dragged me on top of him.

I was now uncomfortably lying on his chest rolling my eyes as he wrapped his hands around me holding me closer.

” What are you doing?” I asked laughing a bit.

” I’m freezing, and you threw the covers off me and onto the floor so I’m using you to keep me warm because, you know.. you’re hot” as he said that I felt him smirk into my temple.

I rolled my eyes and hit his chest before allowing myself to adjust to a more comfortable position, closing my eyes and resting my head on his chest listening to his heartbeat.

The flirt and cheeky one of their group. The boy who was ” busted” in flirting with almost all the girl contestants in x-factor. Ladies and gentleman, Harry Styles.

” Brooke, hey Brooke wake up” someone said while trying to wake me up.

” Go away” I hushed the person as I snuggled closer to the person next to me. I opened my eyes as I realized someone was sleeping next to me and I pushed the person off the bed making him fall to the floor groaning in shock and pain.

Our position from last night changed into me lying next to him my head buried deep into his neck, our chests almost touching and our feet tangled together.

He sat up and fixed his hair before glaring at me.

” I thought you left last night, and what time is it? ” I asked and suddenly found a smirking Cher with her arms crossed by our bed.

” Oh no, you guys were totally inseparable, I don’t get it why don’t you just admit to each other that y’all are in love?” she smirked.

” Because it’s not true, and this moron, doesn’t know what love is, because you know he’s stupid ” I smirked at him and suddenly he attacked me sitting on top of me tickling me.

” Get off me Styles” I said trough laughs as I tried to get him off me.

” Cher help me! ” I laughed and she shook her head and took a picture before giggling and running out of the room.

” I will kill you Styles” I said struggling to breath.

” Oh really now ” he said leaning forwards as he caught my hands hitting his chest stopping what he was currently doing. He intertwined our hands and leaned closer our faces so close each other. I took a deep breath, obviously trying to catch my breath feeling his hot breath tingling on my skin. I looked into those green eyes and watched as that small smile turned into a smirk.

Yeah so that was chapter one of rewriting and I even gave the story a name! hahah, I’ll be deleting the old chapters when I’m done with the story! xx

No ones POV

Liam came over as fast as possible. He carried Chesca into the car. He was crying and so was Demi. Demi couldn’t seem to start the car.

‘’ Demi,  drive. She is going to be okay, just drive’’ Liam said as he put his hand on her shoulder. She took a deep breath before she started the car.

Chescas POV

I opened my eyes tiredly and I felt my throat burn.  

‘’ Water ‘’ I managed to get out. I closed my eyes as I put my hand on my neck. I opened them after seconds’ tears in my eyes because it hurt. I was handed some water and drank it up with closed eyes. I coughed and took a deep breath. I opened my eyes and found Liam leaning against the wall, his eyes burning into me.

‘’ Why didn’t you tell me?’’ he spat and I sighed.

‘’ Does it look like I’m in the mood to be screaming at you right now?’’ I spat seriously tired. He sighed.

‘’ I just don’t get it, why didn’t you tell me?’’ he asked.

‘’ I tried Liam, but I guess it’s good that I didn’t because I know you. If I’d tell you this, you wouldn’t have broken up with me because you wanted to, you wouldn’t have done it because you think I’d kill myself ‘’ I said coldly.

‘’ I don’t know where to start, I said some stupid stuff-‘’ he said but I interrupted him.

‘’ Yes you did, and what’s funny is I didn’t even get drunk on purpose, one drink mixed with my medicine stupid mistake, but I’m glad because you deserved everything I said ‘’ I said as I glared at him.

‘’ Chesca I’m so-‘’ he said but once again I interrupted him.

‘’ No you’re not Liam, I don’t get it. Where is the Liam everyone knows? Where is the guy who promised me he would always be there for me? Those stupid stuff you said, I’m glad you did because now I know what you really think. The hate? The rumors? Yeah I had to deal with them alone, they were so nasty I stopped eating and I went back to hurting myself. You are right, she is better than me. They are right, I’m not skinny enough, pretty enough but you were wrong when you said that she loves you more than I ever did. I went through all this alone, I gave myself to you,  I was so patient through all the bullshit you threw at me. You really think that I would do all these things If I didn’t love you? So go ahead call me fat, tell me I’m not good enough, but no one can love you more than I ever did ‘’ I said tears running down my cheeks.

‘’ You think I don’t care? Liam you are so wrong, you have no idea how much it hurts inside right now. You have no idea because you weren’t the one who was avoided and lied to. The one who was put through so much pain, for something that wasn’t even worth it or real anymore. You weren’t the one who was replaced during the time you were in a relationship. This is the reason why I never tell anyone I love them, I guess it was my fault we fell apart’’ I sighed and closed my eyes.

‘’ It’s not your fault ‘’ he said coming closer, his hand almost touching mine.

‘’ Then why Liam?’’ I asked as I opened them, he didn’t answer. I laughed with no humor at all.

‘’ It’s okay Liam I get it, everyone gets tired of me. You finally got what you wanted from me, you found someone beautiful, you are a big shot now. I get it, people can fall out of love ‘’ I whispered as I looked away.

‘’ But if you think that I forgive you, I don’t know if I can. Maybe someday but not for now. I hope you treat her the way you did to me when we were still okay, just don’t do the same mistakes ‘’ I whispered and grabbed his hand pulling him off the wall. I opened his hand and placed the ring in his palm.

‘’  This is it.. so much for forever and always ‘’ I whispered the pain taking over my chest. It hurt, I was suffocating. I looked him in the eyes and saw that he was crying. I looked over to the door and he walked behind the curtain pulling it to the side a bit so he could see me.

‘’ I’m sorry ‘’ he said sadly, his eyes red from crying.

‘’ Goodbye Liam ‘’ I whispered looking away. I heard him sigh.

‘’ Goodbye beautiful ‘’ I heard him whisper under his breath before he walked outside letting me breakdown alone. That was it, the boy I had ever loved walking out of my life. It hurt badly everything hurt so badly.

So that was it for now :( poor chesca.. Hope you guys like it ! xx

I smiled and shook her hand.

‘’ It’s nice to meet you, and thank you so much ‘’ I honestly said and she smiled before we let go.

‘’ So how long have you guys been dating?’’ I asked.

‘’ It’s been official since a week ago, but I’ve known Liam since the x factor days but we were just friends then, we met again in January ‘’ she smiled obviously smitten by Liam, I nodded with a smile.

‘’ She’s beautiful Liam, I get why you picked her ‘’ I smiled heartbroken. She smiled widely before thanking me. I turned to the guys as I walked backstage. I walked into my dressing room and took a deep breath before looking at myself in the mirror. She was skinny, beautiful and she was absolutely stunning.. I’m nothing compared to her. I closed my eyes before I sighed.

‘’ Oh my gosh babe I am so sorry, I didn’t now ‘’ Demi said as she closed the door behind her. I just looked at her and nodded.

‘’ It’s okay ‘’ I whispered and suddenly the boys burst in the door.

‘’ Hi guys ‘’ I said and looked away.

‘’ Babe I am so sorry ‘’ Niall said before pulling me into a hug. The boys joined the hug and I just sighed. I pulled away from them and smiled.

‘’ I’m okay guys, don’t worry ‘’ I nodded. Niall looked at me worried because of my attitude. I just smiled before I headed for the door. I met up with the lovey dovey couple and the guys followed behind me. I took a deep breath before taking of my necklace placing it on top of one of the boxes there. I looked at the guys and smiled at them before walking of to the stage.

‘’ Hey guys ‘’ I sang as I practically jumped on stage. The crowd went crazy and I giggled.

‘’ So I was thinking I’d play some of my old songs, and then play some of the songs I’ve newly written what do you guys think?’’ I asked and the crowd screamed louder. I giggled and nodded.

‘’ Well since you guys approve I’ll do it ‘’ I giggled and started.

I started singing I’m with you.

How to touch a girl

Make it alright

Back 2 you

This time

‘’ Okay guys, so these next songs I wrote in this past month I wrote this one for two weeks ago. I think you guys saw it, I put it out on twitter?’’ I said they screamed making me giggle

I started singing Stay with me the song I had written for our 6^th anniversary.. I was surprised people could the lyrics.

‘’ This song.. I don’t remember when I wrote it but I hope you guys like it ‘’ I whispered and looked backstage to meet Liams burning eyes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m-DTwn8xJU

I give you an inch and you take a mile
You make mistakes
That erase
When you smile
I’m starting to feel like it ain’t alright
How can you care
If i dont
Cross your mind?

Cause i
Say i wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leavin when i want you to stay, I
Never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But im the only one to blame
Cause im always saying

Its okay
Its alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive
And forget it
And then you promise me i wont regret it
But i do
Its not right
Because i turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you’ll change things
When you keep on crossing the line?

Something about you wont let me go
Maybe its fear of being alone
I keep sayin im gonna move on
But its so hard when you’re all that i know

But i
Say i wanna talk but you just push me away
Tell me your leavin when i want you to stay, I
Never thought that loving you would hurt me this way
But im the only one to blame
Cause im always saying

Its okay
Its alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive
And forget it
And then you promise me i wont regret it
But i do
Its not right
Because i turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you’ll change things
When you keep on crossing the line?

Boy i wish i didn’t give in so easily
Oh i dont know what to do
Cause i keep on feeding the fire
When i should really be telling you we’re through

ohhhhhh,

Its okay
Its alright
I put the pain away and let it slide
I forgive
And forget it
And then you promise me i wont regret it
But i do
Its not right
Because i turn around and let it slide
And im crazy for thinking
That someday you’ll change things
When you keep on crossing the line?

The crowd went crazy and I laughed.

‘’ I’m glad you liked it, this one is called One heart missing ‘’ I smiled and the music started. I wrote this song the day me and Liam were over.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJB2KbxC3ow

Everything feels a little strange
The sunrise does not look the same
Watching my perfect world start caving in
I’m having trouble walking around
Can’t tell the difference from up and down
And gravity keeps on pulling me away from you

Every world feels like a bullet now
There’s no one there to catch my fall

So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space inside of me
Where i let you in
I can’t hear the sound of it beating
It’s so hard breathing i need to believe in love
So tell me how is it supposed to end
With one heart missing

My days feel like a hundred years
I’m so numb i can’t feel my fears
Everyone keeps on telling me that this will pass
Now i’m stuck, stuck here in this lost and found
There’s no one there to hear my call


So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space inside of me
Where i let you in
I can’t hear the sound of it beating
It’s so hard breathing i need to believe in love
So tell me how is it supposed to end
With one heart missing

So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space inside of me
Where i let you in
I can’t hear the sound of it beating
It’s so hard breathing i need to believe in love
So tell me how is it supposed to end
With one heart missing

Somebody show me how to love again
‘Cause i can’t find a piece of me that you’re in

So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space
Where i let you in

So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space inside of me
Where i let you in
I can’t hear the sound of it beating
It’s so hard breathing i need to believe in love
So tell me how is it supposed to end

With one heart missing

So tell me how is it supposed to end
‘Cause i have this empty space inside of me
Where i let you in
I can’t hear the sound of it beating
It’s so hard breathing i need to believe in love
So tell me how is it supposed to end
With one heart missing

‘’ Lets take a little break, I have to go to the bathroom ‘’ I giggled before running of stage and straight to the bathroom ignoring Liam and the guys.

‘’ Enjoy the show guys ‘’ I said smirking at Liam before going back on stage.

‘’ Okay guys so there are only two songs left and then I have a surprise for you guys ‘’ I giggled. I looked at the band and nodded my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TTk9SNZRdI

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…

Let’s talk this over
It’s not like we’re dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don’t leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…

You’ve got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I’m difficult
But so are they
But they don’t know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It’s nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It’s nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

I was looking at him as I song this part and smiled as I turned back to the crowd who went crazy. Some even screamed Liam.

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh…

‘’ Last song before my big surprise guys, by the way this song is for all of you guys who’ve had your heartbroken ‘’ I said raised my mic to get a lot of screaming as a result.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm7y5BjJcwU

I’ve been waiting all day for ya babe
So won’t cha come and sit and talk to me
And tell me how we’re gonna be together always
Hope you know that when it’s late at night
I Hold on to my pillow tight
And think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone)
Could make me feel this way
(Now that you’re here boy all I want)
Is just a chance to say

[Chorus]
Get Out, (leave) right now,
It’s the end of you and me
It’s too late (now) and I can’t wait for you to be gone
‘Cause I know about her (who) and I wonder (why) how I bought all the lies
You said that you would treat me right but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Tell me why you’re looking so confused
When I’m the one who didn’t know the truth
How could you ever be so cold
To go behind my back and call my friend
Boy you must have gone and bumped your head
Because you left her number on your phone
(So now after all is said and done)
Maybe I’m the one to blame but
(To think that you could be the one)
Well it didn’t work out that way

[Chorus]

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you’ve gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin’
With every word I’m sayin’
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn’t last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out

[Chorus x2]

Get out (leave)
You and me
It’s too late (too late)
You ohh
Bout her (who, why)
You said that you would treat me right (noooo)
but it was just a waste of time (waste of time)

Ohhhh oh oh oh hoh oh

With this everyone started going crazy making me laugh.

‘’ One second guys! ‘’ I said and jogged over backstage and dragged Demi out with me making the crowd go wild.

‘’ If you guys watched the interview last year, you could see that I said If I could tour with anyone it would be my idol Demi, and well guys I don’t know how lucky I am but I got that amazing opportunity to do that and become best friends with her as well . I wasn’t really sure if I should do it but after a lot of thinking, and something that happened tonight I’m pretty sure I’m going to accept that opportunity so Demi I’m touring with you! ‘’ I said and she squealed before hugging me and jumping up and down. The crowd went wild and I started laughing.

‘’ Okay guys I have my own surprise for you guys, I was on Cs you tube channel and I saw you guys requesting Beautiful by Christina Aguilera and I think I’m going to make her sing that song tonight, because of all the hate she has been getting lately about her being ugly and so on she’s not, I don’t know If you’re blind but this amazing girl over here doesn’t need to hear all your lies’’ Demi said and nodded to the band as they started playing the song. I song the first part barely getting the words out of me. When Demi sang that other part and the crowd sang it as well it made me cry.

‘’ Thank you guys so much for coming tonight and I‘m hoping I‘ll see you guys soon ! ‘’ I shouted before waving and running backstage. I hugged Demi tightly.

‘’ So we’re going to that bar tonight right? ‘’ I asked and Demi nodded. I know we’re not 21, but hey it helps being famous. I’m finally 18!

‘’ So I asked the guys if they wanted to come ‘’ she whispered into my ear and I smiled nodding my head before turning to the other guys.

‘’ We’ll meet you there ‘’ I smiled before walking out of the venue with Demi driving there. I had changed into a white dress and black heels. Me and Demi were just joking around and dancing. The guys came and I giggled because my friends were here, people I knew and so on because duh celebrating my birthday.

‘’ Hey ‘’ I said and hugged all of them including Liam and Danielle, but hey I had nothing against the girl. You can’t help who you fall in love with, I should know. To be honest it doesn’t seem like she knows anyways. I chatted with her and got to know her a bit before the boys started slow dancing with me one by one sending me to each other while Danielle was chatting with Demi. I was suddenly sent to Liam and I looked away as we started dancing to I won’t give up by Jason Mraz seriously tho?

We were just dancing, and I looked away not wanting to look into his eyes. He sighed.

‘’ Chesca ‘’ he managed to say.

‘’ She’s beautiful Liam, I get why you got with her ‘’ I said and he sighed.

‘’ Chesca please ‘’ he said and I looked at him and shook my head.

‘’ No, what I can’t believe is that you show up on my birthday singing a song like that and then crush my heart again by showing me your lovely girlfriend who is so much more skinnier and beautiful than me. I get it I’m not good enough, you don’t love me anymore whatever but seriously Liam? On my birthday ’’ I spat as I looked at him coldly.

‘’ I like her, I get it. What I don’t get is how could you just forget me like that? What just because I gave you myself you were satisfied and got sick of me? Then a beautiful model comes in the picture again and you go running of? I guess what they say is right, after the guy gets in your pants its over ‘’ I laughed with no emotion.

‘’ I never used you for sex ‘’ he whispered sadly.

‘’ I know you didn’t Liam, because you wouldn’t wait 5 months for that when you could get anyone you wanted, I just don’t get where it went wrong, but I’m used to people getting sick of me ‘’ I sighed.

‘’ So much for Forever and Always ‘’ I sighed as I pulled away took the ring out of my pocket and smiled sadly before taking his hand and letting it hit his palm.

‘’ Thank you Liam, I can’t feel a thing. I love you but you took me for granted, I hope you liked all those songs ‘’ I scoffed before turning around and walking over to the bar. I’m 18 so I’m aloud to drink. I took a sip of the damn thing and just smiled to myself before I sighed letting some of the pain sink in. I looked over to Danielle who looked at me with apologizing eyes. I guess she knows now. I smiled weakly before looking away.

Two days had passed since I last saw them. I had all his things in a box as I walked over to there hotel.

‘’ Hey Nialler ‘’ I smiled as I walked into their room.

‘’ Hey babe, Liam isn’t here ‘’ Niall said.

‘’ That’s okay, just give this to him okay? And tell the boys that you guys have to come visit me, I’ve missed you guys ‘’ I smiled sadly before nodding and walking out of the room.

As I walked past the park I sighed and felt tears building in my eyes as the rain started pouring.

‘’ You don’t have the right to act like the poor girlfriend ‘’ someone screamed and I turned around to find Liam.

‘’ What are you talking about?!’’ I yelled. He held letters up and I scoffed.

‘’ Oh those? Yeah I wrote those a long time ago, and by the way asshole I have all the rights to ‘’ I shouted pissed.

‘’ Don’t worry I won’t tell your girlfriend what you fucking did ‘’ I spat and he came closer, he took my hand and put the ring in my hand before letting go of it.

‘’ I don’t need this ‘’ I said as I glared at him.

‘’ That’s what I mean, your not even affected by this so you have no right to act like this. After all the songs you made people have been sending so much hate, more rumors have been made ‘’ he said.

‘’ Welcome Liam, that’s old news ‘’ I rolled my eyes.

‘’ And those horrible things you kept shouting at me in the bar after everyone went home and you were seriously tipsy, thank you now I know how much you hate me. You know what, I don’t need all this shit, I don‘t need you bitching at me when I have a girlfriend who loves me more than you ever did, guess you were right when you said she was better than you, really nothing compared to her. Just stay away from me okay?’’ he spat coldly before walking away. When did he change like this?

I remember screaming that I hated him, that he was a dick and so on but where is the Liam I fell in love with? No the best friend I found in him?

As I walked into my room I fell to the floor as I looked at the ring and all the memories flashed. The pain had finally gotten trough all the walls I put up and everything hurt so much. The things he said.. The things the haters had been telling me all this time.. This time was different it came from the boy I loved.. The boy I love.. The tears wouldn’t stop, I couldn’t breath. Why me? Why did he have to become like this, I needed him.. I need him.. Nialler, Demi, the boys! I looked at the mirror I had which reached the floor and noticed that I had gotten skinnier these past weeks because I never ate anything. I felt dizzy but I tried to stand up.

‘’ Demi!’’ I yelled loudly.

‘’ No, what the fuck did you say to her? She is in her room broken what the fuck did you do Liam?!’’ I heard Demi scream into the phone. I made it to the door and managed to twist the doorknob and opening the door.

‘’ Demi ‘’ was the last thing I said before falling to the ground unconscious.

Okay so guys, I may delete this chapter in the morning If I feel that I could’ve written it better okay? hehe xx

Everything went silent.

‘’ Liam we have to go ‘’ I heard someone say in the background.

‘’ Baby I’m so-’’ he said but I interrupted him.

‘’ What you have to go again? Go ahead Liam, but just remember this is the last time I’m letting you just hang up on me when I have to talk to you, when I need you ‘’ I said and with that I hung up. I wasn’t going to cry this time. I’m letting my feelings get to me tonight. I’ve cried to much already.

I stood up and checked my phone, 9 missed calls from Liam. I sighed and took my phone with me and out to the living room.

‘’ Come with me ‘’ my sister said and grabbed my wrist making me hiss. Tears filled my eyes as the sharp pain hit me. She looked at me with sad eyes before she hugged me.

‘’ I am so sorry, I forgot about your..’’ she said and sighed.

‘’ Cuts? It’s okay Lauren you can say it out loud’’ I said and she nodded before taking my hand, leading me to the couch.

‘’ It’s okay to cry ‘’ she said as she kneeled in front of me. I shook my head as a tear slipped out. She sighed and walked to the kitchen knowing I wanted to be alone. My phone started vibrating and I looked at it.

Babe

I sighed before picking up the phone.

‘’ Lia- give me the ph-’’ I heard Niall say.

‘’ Chesca ‘’ I heard Liam say before something getting locked. I sighed and felt everything hurt.

‘’ What ‘’ I said coldly.

‘’ Happy belated anniversary ‘’ he whispered.

‘’ Oh wow, you can’t even say it properly? ‘’ I said scoffing. He sighed.

‘’ What do you want me to say Chesca I’m sorry I forgot okay? I’ve just been so busy latel-’’ he said but I interrupted him.

‘’ I would’ve understood Liam because people forget, they make mistakes, but the fact that you’ve been avoiding me? Not wanting to see or talk to me.. It just doesn‘t make sense‘’ I said.

‘’ You said this yesterday, what are you talking about?’’ he asked.

‘’ This has been the longest you’ve actually talked to me Liam. You have been avoiding me and I really don’t know why. If I did something wrong tell me ‘’ I whispered the last part.

‘’ You didn’t do anything wrong ‘’ he said and I laughed with no humor.

‘’ Well obviously I did, or maybe you’re just sick of me but I’m just saying this now before you have to go again. Forgetting was the last drop’’ I said tears welling up in my eyes.

‘’ What do you mean last drop?’’ he asked.

‘’ I’m making it easier for you, this is what you want right? ‘’ I said.

‘’ No I love you ‘’ he said and I felt something change inside but I ignored it.

‘’ Maybe you do Liam, but you sure as hell don’t love me in that way anymore because what you did to me I could never do to you. You’re busy is a lame excuse Liam, that’s all I have to say to you, tell the boys that I’m not mad at them for lying. Goodbye Liam ‘’ and with that I hung up on him.

It was two weeks since our fight. The first week we kept arguing, I love him, I still do. I fiddled with my necklace where I had the ring he gave me and walked into the hallway. I always wore it under a concert, for luck, but since we weren’t together anymore it didn’t feel right to keep it on my finger.

‘’ Demi! ‘’ I yelled as I saw her. She got of the phone and smiled as she hugged me.

‘’ Happy birthday baby! So are you ready to tell everyone you’re touring with me?’’ she smiled and I laughed.

‘’ You’re not getting the answer yet, you’ll know when the others find out and thank you‘’ I smiled. I guess I forgot to mention that me and Demi met up when I came back to the US and if I decide to go touring I’m opening for her.

‘’ Come on ‘’ she said eagerly.

‘’ You don‘t have to go so fast, it‘s about 10 minutes till we start’’ I giggled. She shook her head and pulled me up the stairs and walked in the door to where the balcony thing was. I looked down and noticed all my fans who was there waiting eagerly making me smile. You could see the stage perfectly because it wasn’t such a big place, but still much bigger then the Hard Rock Café and the other venues I’ve played at.

I looked at Demi confused and she nodded. Suddenly all the girls started screaming and I turned my head to the stage to feel my heart dropping.

‘’ Hi everybody, we’re One Direction and we are going to be opening this concert for our best friend C Valentine, happy birthday boo ‘’ Zayn said and looked at me. I found it hard to swallow and as I met Liams eyes my heart broke. He had cut his hair so short, he looked so different.

‘’ We are sadly just going to sing one song for you tonight but we don’t want to steal the star of the nights spotlight’’ I heard Liam say as I closed my eyes. The song started playing and I felt my heart ache as I heard Liam sing.

Girl I see it in your eyes you’re disappointed
‘Cause I’m the foolish one that you anointed with your heart
I tore it apart
And girl what a mess I made upon your innocence
And no woman in the world deserves this
But here I am, asking you for one more chance
My heart stopped at this, he kept looking at me while singing and he smiled at me.. Weakly but that was a smile.. was he really? Is he?..

Can we fall, one more time?
Stop the tape and rewind
Oh and if you walk away I know I’ll fade
‘Cause there is nobody else
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you
Now girl I hear it in your voice and how it trembles
When you speak to me I don’t resemble, who I was
You’ve almost had enough
And your actions speak louder than words
And you’re about to break from all you’ve heard
Don’t be scared, I ain’t going no where
I’ll be here, by your side
No more fears, no more crying
But if you walk away
I know I’ll fade
‘Cause there is nobody else
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you
Oh girl, can we try one more, one more time?
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more time
I’ll make it better
One more, one more, can we try?
One more, one more,
Can we try one more time to make it all better?
‘Cause it’s gotta be you
Its gotta be you
Only you
Oh, Only you
It’s gotta be you
Only you
It’s got to be you
Oh, Only you

The song ended and they waved the curtains closing. I was smiling badly, I love him to much not to give him a second chance. I smiled at Demi before running to the stage and jumping into his arms. As I hugged him I closed my eyes tightly just taking in the moment. After a while I pulled away and smiled as I looked at him.

‘’ I’m so glad you’re here, lets just forget everything okay?’’ I said and he smiled sadly. My hands dropped slowly to my side.

‘’ What?’’ I asked confused.

‘’ Baby, you were great ‘’ someone said suddenly hugging Liam giving him a peck on his lips. Okay my heart has officially been ripped out, thrown to the ground and tramped on. No you know what, that’s not even possible but it feels like it..Wait on second thought.. I don’t feel anything, I feel numb. I took a deep breath before the guys came up to me and hugged me one by one. Niall looked like he was going to cry.

‘’ I’m sorry ‘’ he mouthed. I managed to smile a fake one. I shook my head and the girl smiled at me, she was.. beautiful.

‘’ Hi, Chesca Valentine right? I’m so in love with your music. I’m Danielle, Danielle Peazer’’ she smiled widely as she shook my hand. It all makes sense now.

And to you guys who cut.. I know it’s tempting.. I know it seems like you deserve it, like you just have to do it, you feel you have to punish yourself, like no one cares so you have to go do that and I know I can’t force any of you to stop, but just remember this that you’re not alone. You don’t deserve it, you are all beautiful whether you guys believe me or not. You can hate me for saying that thinking that I’m lying but I’m not, I know I’m just a stranger but you can talk to me, there are some things you can only tell a stranger.. I know I keep saying these things but I really want to help you guys, so just talk to me okay guys? Lotsoflovebabes! xx

Btw; does it make sense to you guys now? hehe

I opened my eyes and couldn’t help but groan a bit. I turned around and wrapped the blanket closer and noticed Liam still asleep. He still had his hand around me. He was slightly snoring, he was just so cute when he was sleeping. I traced his lips with my finger like I always do and a smile slowly appears on his face.

‘’ Morning love ‘’ he said with that sexy morning voice. I smiled and pecked his cheek.

‘’ Morning baby’’ I whispered and he opened his eyes and his smile widened.

‘’ You’re so beautiful ‘’ he said making me blush. I turned around and my back was pressed up against his chest. He held me closer and kissed my shoulder blade and neck. He suddenly chuckled as he traced his finger on my neck.

‘’ Whoops, did I make those?’’ he whispered making me giggle.

‘’ Yeah, you practically attacked my neck. Bloody vamp’’ I muttered making him laugh. I turned my head to look at him and he pecked my lips. I moved my legs and groaned. So soar..

‘’ Soar?’’ he whispered and I nodded.

‘’ Sorry baby ‘’ he said and kissed my shoulder blade.

‘’ Don’t be, last night was amazing. I’m glad I waited and that you’re the one who took it ‘’ I whispered as I turned back around.

‘’ I’m honored to beautiful, and I’m glad you feel that way because it would be a shame if I would disappoint you, your first time ’’ he smirked. I laughed and pushed his chest playfully.

‘’ Trust me, no way in hell did you disappoint ‘’ I giggled before pecking his lips. As I pulled away he had the hugest grin on his face. My hands were still on his chest and I smiled as I looked at the ring. He smiled at me before taking my hand and started admiring the ring on my hand. He kissed my hand and started looking for his boxer. He slipped it on and got out of bed.

‘’ Baby? Do me a favor and find my underwear?’’ I giggled blushingly. He chuckled and tossed me my underwear. I slipped it on under the covers and just lied back down in bed. I patted the empty space next to me and he lied down next to me.

I made him turn around and I held him this time, my head resting on his shoulder for a change. I kissed his neck and he let out a sharp sigh before gasping as I started sucking on his skin. When I was satisfied with myself I pulled away and smirked.

‘’ Now we’re even ‘’ I giggled as he turned to glare at me. We just lied there for a while.

‘’ This is nice ‘’ I sighed.

‘’ It is, but I like it better when I’m holding you ‘’ he said and turned around. The way he was looking at me drove me crazy. Those butterflies in my stomach? Yeah they are seriously dying in there.

‘’ I don’t want to leave tonight ‘’ I sighed. He frowned and then smiled weakly.

‘’ Sing to me ‘’ he suggested and I turned around letting him hold me. I started on one of the songs he loved from my album.

I owe you $20 baby you were right
I guess i should have thought it through before
I swear that all I’ve done since i got off the flight,
Is missed you much and then missed you some more
Unpacked my bags, put on some tunes
But all it did was make me think of you
Now I’m a wreck, i miss my boo
Being away from you is just not cool

I love what you do to me baby
The touch of you makes me go crazy
I figure there’s only one thing to do
I’ve gotta get back to you

I need you to whisper in my ear
And tell me the things that i want to hear
The moment that i got here boy i knew
I’ve gotta get back to you

Rush rush now boy, running on back to you (running on back to you)
Rush rush now boy, as fast as I can to you

Can’t wait until your arms are wrapped around me tight
All night, every night
We’ll watch the stars turn into the morning light
Right there side by side
The things you say, the little things you do
Make me go, make me go oo oo
I need you close, I’ll be home soon
And when i get back I’m gonna stick like glue

I love what you do to me baby
The touch of you makes me go crazy
I figure there’s only one thing to do
I’ve gotta get back to you

I need you to whisper in my ear
And tell me the things that i want to hear
The moment that i got here boy i knew
I’ve gotta get back to you

I’ve gotta get back to where i never feel alone
Back to the best and only love I’ve ever known
To the familiar face, that smile
You make me laugh until i cry
There i belong (i belong)
Cause you’re my heart

(I’m running on back to you)

I love what you do to me baby
The touch of you makes me go crazy
I figure there’s only one thing to do
I’ve gotta get back to you

I need you to whisper in my ear
And tell me the things that i want to hear
The moment that i got here boy i knew
I’ve gotta get back to you

I sang the whole song the turned to look at Liam who had his eyes closed. I pecked his nose and he smiled weakly.

‘’ Okay time to get out of bed ‘’ he said and jumped of the bed the covers falling down after him. He put his basketball shorts on.

‘’ Liam! ‘’ I shouted as the cold hit me. I sat up and he started laughing at me. He tossed me his t shirt and I slipped it on, holding my knees.

‘’ I’m going downstairs to make us some breakfast’’ he said and pecked my nose before walking to the doorframe. He turned to look at me and he smiled.

‘’ I love you Chesca Valentine ‘’ he suddenly said.

‘’ I know, and I love you too Liam Payne ‘’ I smiled as I felt myself blush. He walked out of the room and downstairs. I sighed dreamingly before I lied back down, to rest.

I opened my eyes and looked at the clock, 26 minutes had passed. I jumped out of bed and made my way down slowly.

I entered the kitchen and saw Liam cooking. I giggled because he looked so cute.

‘’ No you were supposed to stay upstairs, I was going to bring your breakfast to you ‘’ he pouted and I giggled. I shook my head.

‘’ No way am I going up the stairs now, walking hurts to much ‘’ I said and he smiled embarrassedly. He walked over to me picked my up bridal style.

‘’ Liam, put me down!‘’ I yelled at him and he laughed shaking his head.

‘’ I can walk you know ‘’ I pouted.

‘’ No actually you can’t, that’s why I’m carrying you ‘’ he smirked making me shut up. He placed me on the bed and walked downstairs. He came in the door walking over with the food. Bacon, eggs, waffles and orange juice. I giggled and he smiled at me.

‘’ What?’’ he asked as he placed the tray on the bed.

‘’ How was I so lucky to find and have a guy like you?’’ I asked. He smiled and sat down next to me.

‘’ I’m the one who was lucky love ‘’ he said before pecking my lips and starting to feed me.

 That was kind of our way to celebrate our anniversary because it was only 6 days after and Liam couldn’t come here. After our anniversary day Liam was really busy. He barely called, barely had time to skype but I understand of course. These are the consequences of dating one of the most famous people now a days and he couldn’t be avoiding me could he?

It’s gone a week since I’ve actually had a conversation with him and the haters have been more active these days. Lets just say it’s gone to the point where my eating disorder is permanently back.

One of the positive things is that I’ve been offered to tour the US and some part of Europe in the start of March and I’m going to announce to everyone at my free concert on my birthday if I’m going on tour or not.

I was in front of the mirror just looking at myself. I had just watched some gossip news about me and Liam having trouble in our relationship and more comments about how fat I was, how ugly I was and so on. I hadn’t been like this for a long time now. I thought I recovered but I guess not.

My phone started vibrating and I ran over to it thinking it was Liam.

Babe

I sighed but smiled weakly before I answered it.

‘’ Babe, what is this I’m hearing from sister that you’re not eating?’’ Niall said making me frown.

‘’ Are you alone?’’ I whispered.

‘’ Yes ’’ he answered after a while.

‘’ Is this because Nat moved to Paris? About Liam being busy?’’ he asked and I sighed.

‘’ No, It’s just.. The haters have been extreme lately.. It just hurts ’’ I whispered the last part. He was about to talk but I spoke.

‘’ Is Liam there? ’’ I asked and he sighed.

‘’ He’s in the other room, but he’s busy ‘’ he said and I sighed.

‘’ Niall why do you guys keep lying to me?’’ I whispered.

‘’ What?’’ he asked shocked.

‘’ I just want to hear his voice ‘’ I said feeling tears well up in my eyes. I could here him sigh and a door opening.

‘’ Hello?’’ someone said happily making me smile.

‘’ Hello? Niall who is this?’’ I heard him ask.

‘’ Chesca ‘’ I heard Niall say.

‘’ Babe ‘’ Liam said now less happy then he was seconds ago.

‘’ I know you’re busy but I just wanted to hear your voice ‘’ I whispered. He didn’t answer.

‘’ I get it, just give Niall the phone ‘’ I said coldly now.

‘’ Babe, I’ll call you okay ‘’ he said.

‘’ Don’t bother, It’s okay Liam I think I get it now ‘’ I said and before Liam could answer Niall took the phone from him.

‘’ Thanks Nialler, I’m just going to go and.. Yeah bye bestie love you ‘’ I whispered and hung up. I sighed before I looked at my shaking hands.

Two hours passed and my phone was ringing. I looked at the caller ID.

Baby

‘’ What?’’ I sighed as I answered.

‘’ You’re not seriously mad at me are you?’’ he scoffed and I felt like my heart had been stabbed.

‘’ I’m not mad at you Liam, even though I have all the rights to be ‘’ I said and I heard him scoff again.

‘’ I honestly just miss you Liam ‘’ I told him. He sighed.

‘’ I miss you too baby ‘’ he said.

‘’ Liam there is something I wanted to tell you ‘’ I said.

‘’ What love?’’ he asked.

‘’ I’ve been struggli-’’ I said but got interrupted.

‘’ I have to go babe, I’m sorry I’ll talk to you later okay?’’ he said.

‘’ What? Uh okay I love you ‘’ I said and he just hung up.

I cried myself to sleep last night. I had been waiting all day for anything, If nothing happened today.. That’s it.

I kept checking my phone all day and I sighed before posting the song I wrote, on twitter with the caption saying: Happy 6^th anniversary again baby! Love you xx I logged of my computer and sighed as I knew that our anniversary was over in London.. I can’t believe he forgot. I felt a tear slip. Was it officially over? The rumors, my boyfriend avoiding me, the hate everyone had been throwing at me for the past weeks made me feel sick as I rushed to the bathroom to throw up.

‘’ Love finally you answered ‘’ Haz said as I picked up my phone.

‘’ Let me talk to him Haz ‘’ I said and I heard him give the phone to someone.

‘’ Babe, are you okay?’’ I heard Niall say.

‘’ Niall as much as I love you guys, give him the phone ‘’ I spat. I heard him sigh and he gave it to someone.

‘’ Boo bear’’ I heard Louis sigh.

‘’ Louis! Please give Liam the fucking phone!’’ I hissed now.

‘’ Hello?’’ I heard someone say not sounding tired, I can cross that excuse of the list.

‘’ You haven’t actually talked to me, skyped with me, answered my texts since about a month now.. I get that your busy but that’s to much Liam. You’ve been avoiding me too.. If it really is over Liam then tell me because I can’t and I won’t keep sitting here waiting and feeling pathetic because I still love a guy who doesn’t even love me back! I can’t wait forever and I won’t. I fought when you didn’t. What happened to us Liam? I told myself that this is it.. This was the last drop’’ I spat.

‘’ What the hell are you talking about?’’ he spat back.

‘’ HAPPY FUCKING 6^TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO YOU TOO ASSHOLE’’ I yelled pissed, hurt and disappointed.

Drama.. hahah I’m back! Yeah I hope you guys like it! The song: Back 2 you - Jessica Mauboy. Btw: I wrote a little about eating disorder, and I know that the people that have eating disorders for me are such strong persons. I’m just letting you guys know that If you guys need anyone to talk to, about this, about anything I’m here for you guys. Just come talk, I’ll listen, I’ll help if I can! xxx

‘’ This is my daughter Ruth and my other daughter Nicola and my husband Geoff ‘’ she told me as she smiled widely. I held out my hand for Ruth but she just looked at Nicole before they both laughed and pulled me into a hug.

‘’ You’re absolutely stunning ‘’ they both whispered to me making me giggle and blush. As I pulled away I smiled and laughed.

‘’ Thank you, you guys are too. I love your clothes ‘’ I honestly told them before I hugged Mr. Payne.

‘’ It’s nice to finally meet you Chesca ‘’ he smiled at me.

‘’ You too Mr. Payne ‘’ I smiled and he shook his head dismissively.

‘’ Call me Geoff ‘’ he smiled and I nodded with a smile.

‘’ Karen ‘’ Liams mom smiled at me as I was about to speak. I nodded and smiled widely.

‘’ And you can just call us sis ‘’ Nicole said making me giggle.

‘’ I’ll just go wake him up ‘’ I smiled before I jogged upstairs and into his room.

‘’ Baby ‘’ I whispered as I shook him a bit. He groaned and grabbed my hand pulling me into bed next to him. I could feel him smile against my shoulder as snaked his arms around my waist and held me close. I giggled.

‘’ Liam I would love to lay here in bed with you for the day, but we got company’’ I said. He just nodded and buried his deeper into my neck. I felt him kiss my neck making me giggle.

‘’ Liam!’’ I yelled and suddenly he started ticking me.

‘’ Well lookie here, I can see the headlines. Cutest couple of the year, can’t you Nicola?’’ Ruth said by the doorframe making Liam stop and sit up.

‘’ Guys ‘’ he said before he jumped out of bed and hugged them.

‘’ Chesca, I thought you were going to come and wake him up not play around like this ‘’ Nicola teased making me laugh.

‘’ Do you guys really have to go?’’ I asked as we stood by the front door. Karen nodded her head sadly.

‘’ I asked my mom, and if you guys would like to you guys can spend Christmas with us at our place ‘’ I said and she smiled brightly.

‘’ We would love too!’’ she said excitedly. They were going to their hotel because it was over midnight now, and I don’t know why they didn’t stay here.

I hugged his sisters and they both whispered to me how much they love me for Liam and so did his dad. I hugged Karen and she hugged me tightly.

‘’ I can’t possibly imagine seeing Liam with anyone else than you, I see how much he loves you Chesca and I’m glad that he chose you. I absolutely adore you so I approve. I really like you for my son sweetie’ she said before pulling away I smiled widely before I mouthed thank you.

It was the 26^th of December and Christmas yesterday was amazing. My mom and sister got along well with Liams family. I also got the most beautiful ring of Liam.

Liam was leaning against the doorframe and I walked over to him as he gave me a box. I opened it to find the most beautiful ring.

‘’ Liam ‘’ I gasped. It was beautiful.. It was too much.

‘’ I can’t take this babe, It’s to much ‘’ I whispered trying to give it back. He chuckled as he shook his head taking the ring out. He slipped it on for me.

‘’ Just say thank you and look up ‘’ he said. I looked up confused and smiled as I saw a mistletoe hanging. I giggled.

‘’ Thank you babe ‘’ I giggled before crashing my lips to his.

Now I was getting ready for my questing at the Alan Carr chatty man.

‘’ She’s beautiful, she’s young, she’s a new rising star making a name for herself Miss Chesca Valentine ‘’ I heard and that was my cue. I walked down those stairs and smiled as I saw the audience and Alan. He hugged me and I sat down on the couch.

‘’ So Chesca you’re looking lovelier then ever ‘’ he said making me blush.

‘’ Oh stop it you ‘’ I giggled and so did he.

‘’ So your first album is out, I got it right here, aw look at you here so pretty with a guitar in your hand ‘’ he teased making me laugh.

‘’ Yes it’s out, I’m so glad that I’ve gotten so much positive responds ‘’ I giggled.

‘’ So how long have you been singing?’’ he asked me.

‘’ Since I was 4 years old ‘’ I told him and he smiled cheekily.

‘’ We actually have a video clip of you ‘’ he said and a video of me singing when I was 4 came on.

After asking me tons of questions about my career a picture of me kissing someone who wasn’t Liam came on.

‘’ This doesn’t look like Liam ‘’ he joked making me laugh.

‘’ That’s because that guy is my ex boyfriend’’ I told him and he nodded.

‘’ I bet he regrets being a dickhead now huh?’’ he said making me laugh.

‘’ To be honest, I don’t give a fudge about him anymore. I have Liam now and to be honest I‘m glad I went trough hell before I found my gate to heaven ‘’ I told him.

‘’ Finally what we all have been waiting for how are things with you and Liam?’’ he teased and suddenly a picture of us kissing came on making me blush.

‘’ Everything’s great ‘’ I smiled happily.

‘’ How about the hate? I don’t get how anyone could possibly have anything negative to say about such an adorable and likable girl like you’’ he said which made me go aww before I laughed.

‘’ I understand where they’re coming from, but I just don’t understand why they can’t respect me as a person. They wouldn’t like it if I did something like that to them? I get it if they hate me because they don’t like my music or whatever you know but hating me because I’m dating the guy I love like seriously though? I mean hating me won’t make him love you ‘’ I said and the audience started clapping making me laugh a bit.

‘’ You go girl ‘’ he said and did that Z snap thing making me laugh harder.

‘’ How do you deal with it?’’ he asked me.

‘’ I just try to ignore it to be honest, I mean there are 10 haters and a 1000 who actually supports us so I choose to focus on the positive even though the negative can sometimes get to me ’’ I said.

‘’ How does Liam react to that?’’ he asked.

‘’ Being Liam means not overreacting, he is super supportive and he helps me get trough it but I mean when some of them get to nasty he can get really pissed ’’ I answered.

‘’ Oh a protective side of Liam ‘’ he said making me laugh.

‘’ Well we’ll take a break there ‘’ he said and we took a break.

‘’ So we’re back and look who’s still with us miss Chesca Valentine ‘’ he said and everyone clapped.

‘’ So Chesca I’m curious, I noticed you got a flashy ring over there ‘’ he said and I giggled.

‘’ Busted ‘’ I joked and he laughed.

‘’ So is this from a special someone, maybe a special boy from a special band named One Direction?’’ he said making me laugh and I nodded.

‘’ Is this someone special Liam?’’ he said and everyone started screaming.

‘’ Yes ‘’ I giggled.

‘’ So when’s the wedding?’’ he asked and I laughed.

‘’ That’s going to fast Alan ‘’ I giggled.

‘’ Oh so you can’t see yourself marrying him?’’ he asked.

‘’ Of course I can, but I’m still 17, marriage is a long way ahead’’ I said and he nodded.

‘’ So what’s this ring about then?’’ he asked eagerly.

‘’ Well first this is Liams Christmas gift for me ‘’ I said and he nodded.

‘’ Second, it’s a promise ring ‘’ I said.

‘’ Uuu, what kind of promise?’’ he asked.

‘’ That’s between me and Liam ‘’ I winked and remembered what he said to me last night.

‘’This ring is my promise to you that even though what happens in the future , I will always be here for you and I’ll always love me. Forever and Always ‘’

Alan laughed at what I said.

‘’ My last question, your fans and thousands of people are wondering when you are doing your first tour and if you could chose with who?’’ he asked.

‘’ Well I’m not sure actually, but if I could chose to tour with someone it would probably be my idol Demi Lovato ‘’ I said and he nodded.

‘’ Well then, thank you so much for dropping by Chesca I would love to have you here again or meet up ‘’ he winked and hugged me.

Last day of 2011. Everyone was gathered again at the new year party the boys had planned. It was almost midnight and everyone was eagerly waiting for midnight which was minutes away.

‘’ Hey babe ‘’ Liam said as he approached me and put his hands around my waist and his head resting on my shoulder. He kissed my cheek as I watched the sky.

‘’ This year went by so fast ‘’ I mumbled and he nodded into my shoulder.

‘’ But something great happened to me this year ‘’ he said.

‘’ Yeah what is that?’’ I asked as I turned around and faced him.

‘’ You ‘’ he said making me blush and giggle.

‘’ Ditto ‘’ I whispered. Everyone started counting down. 9, 8, 7..

‘’ I love you Liam you have no idea how much ‘’ I said as I leaned in. 6, 5, 4..

‘’ No words can explain ‘’ he whispered back. 3, 2, 1.. And with that he crashed his lips against mine.

‘’ Happy new year!’’ everyone screamed and clapped. I pulled away and rested my head on his forehead.

‘’ Happy new year beautiful ‘’ he whispered.

‘’ Happy new year baby ‘’ I giggled and pecked his nose.

I stumbled into Liams flat and giggled for no reason, it rained a bit on our way home so I’m guessing the guys moved the party inside. I was dizzy from the car ride because the venue of the party was pretty far away. Liam took his shirt of and drenched it. He ran his hand trough his wet hair and I couldn’t help but stare at him. I bit my lip and he looked up and smirked at me. He walked up to me backing me up against the front door. He leaned closer locking the door behind me. He let out a short laugh before he backed up making me take a deep breath.

I walked up to him and placed my hands on his chest tracing his abs. He suddenly stopped me by placing his hands on mine.

‘’ What ar-’’ he asked but got interrupted by me crashing my lips against his. He backed me up against the wall before he pulled away.

‘’ That’s not fair, no teasing ‘’ he hissed.

‘’ I’m not teasing ‘’ I said before I crashed my lips against his again kissing him more passionate this time showing him that my hunger was increasing. I pulled away breathless and cursed under my breath.

‘’ I want you ‘’ I whispered before looking him in the eyes showing him that I was serious. He crashed his lips against mine, and I knotted my fingers in his hair. I pulled away and took his hand leading him up the stairs. I opened the door and let him in before closing it behind me.

He pushed me up against the door again before placing his lips on mine begging for entrance. I obliged and our tongues battled for dominance. His hands slipped under my bum as he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He made his way over to his bed and he put me down gently resting his weight on me his bulge against my thigh.

He kissed me with so much passion and hunger, he wanted me.. and I wanted him. I’m not planning on stopping him this time.

He pulled away from my lip, pecked my jaw line and moved to my neck. I let out a gasp before I placed my hands in his hair. I felt him smirk into my neck before he began to suck that spot. I suddenly let out a muffled moan before he pulled away satisfied with himself. He placed his hand on the zipper of my dress and looked into my eyes. I nodded and he zipped it open and slipped it of before smiling to himself.

’’ You’re beautiful ’’ he whispered before he went back to kissing me. My hands went to his pants as I unbuttoned it and he slipped it off.

He had slipped of my underwear now and he had taken of his boxer, this boy was huge. He was admiring me making me really uncomfortable and I couldn’t stop blushing.

’’ Liam ’’ I said snapping him out of it. He smiled as he leaned in to my ear.

’’ Baby you’re beautiful ’’ he whispered before putting his lips on my skin. He kept sucking at a spot on my neck making me go weak. I needed him, I needed him bad.

‘’ Liam ‘’ I whispered letting him know that I needed him. He looked into my eyes before he spoke.

‘’ Baby are you sure?’’ he asked his eyes full of hunger and concern. I nodded and put my hand on the back of his neck pulling him closer his hand made his way down and I gasped.

‘’ Show me how much you love me Liam, make me yours and I’ll make you mine ‘’ I whispered into his ear and I felt him grow harder making me gulp.

‘’ I love you so much babe ‘’ he whispered before placing his lips on mine.

‘’ I love you too baby, just be gentle with me’’ I whispered and with that he nodded.

Okaaaay so awkward hahahah, this chapter is pretty long because tomorrow I’m going camping.. in the woods so wish me good luck! hahaha I hope you guys like it! Night xx

oh and the ring!

‘’ Boys! ‘’ I yelled to the rest of them as I walked into the living room. Harry, Zayn and Liam shot their heads up in shock as they saw me. They stood up and ran over to me pulling me into another group hug. I giggled as I felt Niall and Louis join the hug.

‘’ Hey baby ‘’ I whispered before crashing my lips into Liams. After seconds I pulled away and sighed.

‘’ God I’ve missed you’’ we both said a the same time.

‘’ So what’s the plan?’’ Haz asked.

‘’ What plan ?’’ I asked confused.

‘’ Well we are planning on celebrating Christmas earlier on the 23^rd so we can celebrate it together and then everyone is going home on the 24^th’’ Zayn explained and I nodded.

‘’ And at new years we are having a party where all the families come and Chesca we would love for you to join us ‘’ Louis smiled and I nodded with a smile on my face.

The boys had gone to sleep and I walked out to the bench where I had been the first days when everything started. I wrapped my coat around me and looked up to the stars.

‘’ Hey love, can’t sleep?’’ someone asked and I turned to find Liam walking over to me. I shook my head and rested it on his shoulder as he sat next to me.

‘’ So you’re going home on the 24^th?’’ I asked and he shook his head.

‘’ What?’’ I asked.

‘’ My family is coming over here ‘’ he smiled down at me.

‘’ How come?’’ I asked.

‘’ Because babe, my family wants to meet you and they can’t wait ‘’ Liam smiled and I blushed and suddenly felt nervous.

‘’ What if they don’t like me?’’ I whispered. I hadn’t a lot of time to prepare they were coming in three days.

‘’ They won’t like you Chesca, they’ll love you ‘’ he whispered as he kissed my temple. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes trying to calm down.

‘’ Lets get some sleep love ‘’ he said and took my hand leading me upstairs. He handed me a t shirt that was so much bigger than me. His room was really warm so I knew I wouldn’t freeze. I took of my coat and top standing in only a bra and jeans. I turned around to find Liam staring before turning around blushing. I giggled and slipped the t shirt on before I took of my pants and crawled into bed. I cuddled up to Liam before kissing his nose and burying my head into his neck.

Two days had passed and it was the 23^rd.

I walked downstairs to find Eleanor there.

‘’ Babe!’’ I squealed before running over to her and tackling her into a hug. I pulled away and giggled as her smile was so big and she was glowing again. Every time she was with Louis she would be like this, ever since they got together in September.

‘’ I can’t reach the top ‘’ I said trying to put the star on top of the three. The boys were chuckling and I turned to look at them.

‘’ You guys suck ‘’ I pouted before I tried again suddenly I was lifted up by the waist and I reached the top. I placed the star on top and was placed on the ground again. I turned to find Liam and I giggled before kissing him.

‘’ Thanks baby ‘’ I smiled before going back to decorating.

Last night went by so fast, we ate dinner after decorating and opened each others gifts. The other boys had already left.

I heard the doorbell going crazy and I yawned before putting on some pj bottoms and going downstairs. My hair was still straightened out from last night but I bet I look like crap. I opened the door to find my boyfriends family.

‘’ You must be Chesca, you are much more beautiful than Liam describes you ‘’ his mother said as they walked inside.

‘’ It’s nice to finally meet you ‘’ she said before pulling me into a hug. I felt myself smile before I finally spoke.

‘’ You too, Liam has told me so much about you guys! And thank you’’ I managed to say before we pulled away from each other. God please don’t let me ruin this.

Omg I really hate this story right now, hahah I just want to get past this part cause it sucks.

He looked at me with a smile and placed one of his hands on my cheek.

‘’ You don’t have to say it back, I get it if you’re not ready. Your mom told me how you’re careful with love and that’s okay I just wanted you to know ‘’ he whispered and stroked my cheek before kissing my forehead. He pulled away and picked up his bag before turning to look at me.

‘’ I guess I’ll see you soon beautiful ‘’ he smiled and kissed me one last time and all the boys had hugged me one last time. He was ready to leave but I stopped him.

‘’ Say it again ‘’ I managed to finally get out. He turned to look at me.

‘’ I love you ‘’ he said making my heart beat faster this time.

‘’ I love you too Liam ‘’ I said without hesitation. His eyes widened a bit, I guess he was shocked. He dropped his back gently before looking at me.

‘’ Say it again ‘’ he whispered as he came closer.

‘’ I love you Liam, I love you ‘’ I said with a sweet smile. His smiles widened and he was now in front of me, his hands in mine.

‘’ Say it one last time please ‘’ he begged. I giggled and had that cute nose to nose moment with him.

‘’ I love you ‘’ I whispered and he grinned widely before picking me up and spinning me around before putting me down and crashing his lips against mine. I couldn’t help but smile trough the whole kiss even though I knew he was about to leave.

He pulled away and looked me straight in the eyes.

‘’ I love you, I love you, I love you ‘’ he whispered before pecking my lips and letting go of my waist.

‘’ I love you Chesca!’’ he yelled as he waved before boarding.

‘’ I love you too baby ‘’ I waved and giggled my tears running down my cheek. The boys smiled at me sadly and waved. I blew them all a kiss before watching them board.

I turned around and sighed as I head out of the airport.

Liam was calling on skype two days later and I accepted, looking at him trough the computer. I smiled widely.

‘’ Hey baby ‘’ I managed to say. He sighed.

‘’ I missed your voice ‘’ he smiled.

‘’ Not as much as I missed yours ‘’ I said running a hand trough my wet hair. I had just showered and I was in my black tank and white pj pants with Minnie mouse prints all over it.

‘’ Did you just wake up? ‘’ I asked and he nodded.

‘’ You going to bed?’’ he asked and I shook my head.

‘’ Not going to for a while ‘’ I smiled and he looked down before looking at me with that look of his which made me melt.

‘’ I wrote a new song ‘’ I mentioned to him in the middle of our conversation.

‘’ Yeah? Let me hear love ‘’ he said excitedly. I giggled.

‘’ Well I’m publishing the video on youtube in 2 minutes ‘’ I giggled.

‘’ So no private show?’’ he pouted and I smiled.

‘’ You’re the one who is supposed to sing me to sleep ‘’ I giggled and he smiled.

‘’ I wish I could hold you tonight ‘’ he sighed.

‘’ I know, I wish you could hold me too, but baby don’t worry we’ll be together again soon ‘’ I smiled.

I published the video and minutes later I heard Liam watching it.

‘’ Hey guys, It’s me again. It’s been a while and I just want to thank you all for all your support. As you guys know I’ve been signed and I’m going to be recording soon. Don’t worry guys I won’t go all diva, I’m still going to be posting on you tube taking requests and everything. I’m actually going to be working on making an album and I’m going to start recording soon. As always just keep putting in requests and I’ll try to do my best, so guys this is one of my new songs which I wrote last night actually ‘’ I heard myself say.

‘’ Bear with me guys, I hope you all like it ‘’ I said in the video and music started.

’’ Mmm Yeah yeah mmm
It’s not every day that you find an angel
Hiding away in a perfect stranger,
Waiting on you
So used to be broken & lied to
Don’t push away, it’s destined to find you
Cuz they’re on their way

Oh
I’m singing cuz I know,
I’ve been right there before
But then I found the one
Who made me change my mind
He turned my life around,
Pick me up off the ground
Now I’m alive, he makes it alright

Whenever my world stops spinning
Whenever my stars start falling
And every time the winds are blowing,
You can make it stop; you make it alright
Whenever my heart stops beating
And every time I lose that feeling
You, you make it alright
You make it alright (You make it alright)
You make it alright (You make it alright)

So many times you broke down, they hurt you
You never had someone there to save you
But don’t give up yet no no
Look at me, I finally got me someone who’s there for me
Give it time, you’re gunna find someone who’s there for you
Trust me the wait is worth it ooh ooh oohohh

I’m singing cuz I know,
I’ve been right there before
But then I found the one
Who made me change my mind
He turned my life around,
Pick me up off the ground
Now I’m alive, you make it alright

Whenever my world stops spinning
Whenever my stars start falling
And every time the winds are blowing,
You can make it stop; you make it alright
Whenever my heart stops beating
And any time I lose that feeling
You, you make it alright (You make it alright)

You keep my ground from shaking all around me,
You’re strong, won’t let it break
You take my breath away,
And now I’m safe
And there’s just no way I could ever live without you
Bring out the very best of me,
The part of me I could never see

Whenever my world stops spinning (world stop spinning)
Whenever my stars start falling (ohh)
& any time the winds are blowing (any time, any time)
You can make it stop; you make it alright (you make it alright)
Whenever my heart stops beating (my heart, yeah)
& every time I lose that feeling
You, you make it alright
You make it alright (You make it alright)
Mmm You make it alright (You make it alright) ’’ I sang. There was a long pause and troughout the whole video Liam looked so concentrated and he was smiling trough the whole song.

’’ That was it guys I hope you liked my new song, and to my amazing boyfriend who is probably watching this. I love and miss you baby ’’ I heard myself say and the video ended.

’’ I love and miss you too love ’’ he said and smiled at me.

’’ So was that song about me?’’ he asked acting stupid.

’’ No Liam it was about Lukas ’’ I laughed and I saw him tense up.

’’ I’m kidding baby, of course it’s about you ’’ I giggled shyly.

’’ Don’t be so shy love, you are incredible at what you do and thank you so much baby by the way if he tries anything he’s dead ’’ he said seriously and I couldn’t help but smile and giggle a bit.

Liam and I have been dating for 4 months now and he managed to visit me for our every anniversary and stayed for a few days with the boys except this month. Him not being here sucked but it was okay because I understood why he couldn’t come here. One it isn’t cheap and two even though I missed him I’m so thankful for being with him at least a few days every month because luckily they hadn’t been very busy lately.

It’s December and my mom and I are going to London to spend Christmas with my sister there and I’m thankful for this because I get to spend it with Liam and the boys as well.

My sister had taken me to Liams flat where I know the boys would be. I knocked on the door and smiled as Lou and Niall opened the door. I don’t understand why both of them went to open the door but it’s okay, haha. They stood in shock before yelling my name. I was suddenly pulled into a hug by both of them and I giggled because I really missed these boys.

Okay guys hahaha it kind of sucked but I hope you guys still like it!

The song; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mPosdZyW3iY

Sorry for constantly skipping further into the story, hahah if that made any sense. Well yeah I hope you guys like it ! xx  

I kissed Liams cheek before placing my camera on the nightstand beside the bed.

” Happy birthday baby” I whispered and smiled to myself before leaving the house and heading for school.

No ones POV

Liam woke up about an hour after Chesca left. When he opened his eyes he wondered where all the boys were. He looked at the nightstand and smiled as he saw the camera. He turned it on and a video played.

” Hey baby, I’m guessing you’re awake since you’re watching this. I wish I could be there with you when you wake up but since you’re such a good influence I’m stuck at school. Well all I wanted to say is happy birthday baby! I’ll see you after school, you have the whole house for yourself. I’m not sure where the boys went, oh and don’t worry I made you breakfast. See you later handsome.. ” Chesca blew a kiss on the video before it was over. He smiled to himself before walking downstairs to eat breakfast.

Chesca’s POV

I rushed from school and home to see Liam on the couch sleeping. I giggled as I walked up to him and stroked his cheek and lips with my finger when suddenly he opened his eyes and grabbed me by the waist pulling me down onto him. I giggled as I fell ontop of him and we managed to land on the floor. He hovered over me and I smiled widely.

” Happy birthday baby ” I whispered before I put my hand on his face so close to kissing him.

” Happy birthday Liam!” the boys yelled interrupting us. The boys stopped when they saw us and started cheering.

” Seems like Liam is getting himself some birthday sex ” Harry said making me blush. Liam got of me and helped me up.

” I’m just going to ” I said not finishing my sentence as I walked to the bathroom stopping where they couldn’t see me, but I could still hear them.

” Are you guys going to take it to the next level lad?” I heard Zayn ask.

” I’m not going to pressure her into anything, I can wait and besides maybe that’s going to fast. ” I heard Liams voice say making me think.

” Or maybe she just doesn’t want you ” Harry joked and the boys laughed but I could hear something different in Liams. This was so weird listening to I mean boys will be boys but still.

” Boys ” I playfully sighed as I walked up to them. They were about to say something but I cut them off.

” So I’m guessing you guys are taking Liam out right?” I said and they looked at each other and shrugged.

” Well you guys go do that but have him home by 8 and then leave okay?” I said with a smile.

” Yeah we were thinking about going to a club tonight ” Zayn said.

” But we’re no-” Niall said but cut off by Zayn.

” Oh we’ll manage, alright boo we’ll have him home at 8 ” he smiled and the boys headed for the door. Liam just stood there and I giggled as I walked over to him and hugged him.

” Don’t worry babe, have fun okay?” I said and he nodded still not sure. I giggled and kissed his cheek and was about to kiss him before Louis dragged him away from me.

” Lou!” I shouted and he shrugged with a grin on his face before pulling Liam out of the house.

It was perfect timing because my mom and sister were visiting my grandma and they would come back after the boys had left.

I had built a fort of blankets and pillows in front of the TV in the living room. All the lights were off except for the TV and the small lights in the fort.

I heard someone knocking on the door so I opened it to find Liam. He smiled widely before sighing.

‘’ Finally ‘’ and with that he crashed his lips against mine.

‘’ Happy birthday handsome ‘’ I said as I pulled away. He locked the front door and I grabbed his hand leading him to the living room. I looked at his face as it lit up when he saw what I had built for us.

We went inside the fort and lied down. He smiled even wider when he saw the cupcakes, candy, sweets, popcorn and stuff not so far away from us.

‘’ Thank you so much babe ‘’ he said and pecked my lips making me smile.

‘’ Anything for you ‘’ I whispered before kissing him again.

‘’ Oh and before I forget ‘’ I said and got the cupcake with the candle on it and lit it.

‘’ Make a wish baby ‘’ I said and he closed his eyes and opened them again before blowing the candles out.

‘’ So what movie are we going to watch?’’ he asked me and I pulled out Toy story making his face light up again.

I put on the movie and we just lied there cuddling.

In the middle of the movie I noticed him staring at me. I turned to look at him and I giggled.

‘’ What? ‘’ I asked and he shook his head slightly smiling before removing a piece of my hair and tucking it behind my ear.

” I’m guessing you’re not interested in watching the movie ” I whispered. He shook his head and leaned in and placed his lips on me. He kissed me with so much passion and hunger, he wanted me.. and I wanted him.

He hovered over me, kissing my jaw line and moving to my neck. I let out a gasp before I placed my hands on his chest, signaling him to stop. I wasn’t ready.

’’ Liam ’’ I whispered embarrassedly. Way to ruin the moment C. His eyes widened like he just realized something and he leaned back sitting up.

’’ Oh my god.. Babe I am so sorry… I didn’t.. I didn’t mean to pressure you, I get it if yo-’’ he started babbling so I cut him off by kissing him.

’’ I’m sorry Liam I’m just not ready yet even tough you have no idea how much I want you ’’ I said before looking away.

‘’ I’m sorry I ruined your night and disappointed you ‘’ I added whispering. His hand went on top of mine.

‘’ Hey.. Hey love look at me, if there is anyone who should be apologizing that person should be me, you’ve already given me too much and I thought I could just take more I’m sorry, and you didn’t ruin my night, and you didn’t disappoint me either. I respect you C, and I’ll wait for how long it takes and if you didn’t notice I want you too ‘’ he said chuckling at the end.

‘’ Yeah I kind of noticed that ‘’ I giggled a bit before kissing his lips.

‘’ One day Liam.. I promise ‘’ I whispered against them before going back to kissing him.

The TV was off and we were just lying there talking and cuddling.

‘’ Oh I almost forgot ‘’ I giggled before running upstairs and getting my present. I ran back downstairs and gave it to him.

‘’ More presents? Love you didn’t have to, you already made this the best birthday ever ‘’ he smiled.

‘’ It’s not much, but I hope you like it ‘’ I said and made him open it. He ripped the gift paper and his eyes lit up once again his widest smile on his face as he went trough it. He went back to a page and showed it to me.

‘’ One of my favorite pictures ‘’ he smiled, and I looked at the picture. It was taken that day they came. I was happy that he liked the scrapbook I made him. Some pictures of the guys and us, and the rest only us.

‘’ Thank you so much for everything ‘’ he said before kissing me.

We lied down again just cuddling.

‘’ Best girlfriend ever ‘’ I heard him whisper making me blush.

I texted the boys to tell them to come home and they came home after ten minutes.

‘’ What did you guys do?’’ I asked as they walking in clearly exhausted.

‘’ Played soccer, now if you will excuse us ‘’ Louis said and the boys ran upstairs making me laugh. I turned to Liam who was lying in the fort. How could a person be so flawless?

I just stared at the guy I love.. I said love right? I love him, I do but saying I love you is one of the hardest things for me to do. I have never said I love you in that way to anyone not even Lukas.

For me telling someone you love them is putting your guards down leaving you in the middle of the battlefield without armor or weapon, completely vulnerable and leaving him to hurt you. I know he’s worth it, but it’s just that I’m afraid that if I tell I love him first and he tells me it back that I don’t know if he told me that because he really does love me or if he just said it because he felt he had too. All I know for now is that when the right time comes, I’ll be ready to tell him that I love him.

Two days had passed and we were now at the airport. I had hugged the boys goodbye and now I was standing in front of Liam. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist tightly. I was sobbing, I had since we left my house and my heart was aching as I was soon to watch my boyfriend and best friends leave.

‘’ I wish you didn’t have to leave ‘’ I cried.

‘’ I wish we didn’t have to leave either love but we’ll skype and call each other everyday alright?’’ he said and I nodded into his neck.

I pulled away from him and tried to wipe my tears but Liam pushed my hands out of the way and wiped them himself. I looked up to him to find him crying as well.

‘’ Don’t forget me okay? Don’t let the fans get to grabby ‘’ I tried to smile but it failed.

He chuckled a bit and shook his head.

‘’ I could never forget someone I think about every minute ‘’ he said making my heart melt. We were quiet for a while quietly sobbing as we looked into each others eyes.

‘’ Okay no more crying okay?’’ I said and wiped away his tears as he wiped away mine.

‘’ You guys too ‘’ I said to the boys as I dried of their tears.

‘’ We need to get going Liam ‘’ Zayn said sadly as he watched me and Liam. He nodded and looked back at me. He kissed my forehead and looked down into my eyes. He pulled me into a hug and I felt my tears build up again but I wouldn’t let them out now.

‘’ I love you Chesca ‘’ he whispered loudly enough for me to hear and make my heart stop beating. Wait.. Did he just say he loves me?

Okay guys a long onee.. Hahah I had to write it AGAIN because everything got deleted earlier.. So this is my 100^th post so I decided to make it a longer one to celebrate it! Hahah I hope you guys like it though! Night y’all xx!

The fort looked like this kind of hahah :

and the picture:

(from wehearit)

Btw; do you guys think that it was to early to say I love you?